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Robbie Marriage's avatar

This is a fantastic piece on the feeling that comes with rooting for a loser. The games are hard to watch. The disappointment is perpetual. Your (non-fan) family members continuously force you to justify why you keep spending your time in this way, but you just can't pull away, because this is the team you're in love with.

It'd be great if I could go cheer for the San Francisco 49ers or the New England Patriots, but I can't. I was cursed to be a fan of the Jacksonville Jaguars. Grace got a different flavour of the same curse with the New York Jets, but for the most part the experience is the same. The constant disappointment is all in service of those few good feelings that come, because those feelings are more intense than anything in the world.

If I could describe the elation I felt when I was absolutely sure the Jaguars were going to make the 2017 Super Bowl, I'd be a millionaire as a writer. Alas, I cannot describe it, but that feeling is what we do this for. The Jaguars did not make the Super Bowl that day, but that feeling I got for getting so close is what's kept me coming back for years and years and will keep me coming back into the future.

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Joe Rickles's avatar

This is fantastic. You perfectly describe the irrational pride that comes from being dedicated to a team like this. Your description of your family watching Rodgers’ injury was especially poignant to me. It reminded me of every late-2010s, double-digit Knicks loss I watched with my parents, even if they were only invested for the MSG broadcast. To truly love a team that makes you feel stupid for watching, and still supporting them anyways.

Happy that Notes finally gave me something worth reading, and I’m excited to read more of your stuff.

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